Wednesday, April 4, 2012

MY SUPPORTS


Until recently, I relied strongly on other’s support or approval.  Support demonstrated approval, for me.  In order to leave my director’s position, pursue my dream (Creative Beginning Steps), and return to college, I relied on the support of my family, primarily my husband.  Without his support, I would still be in the classroom (which would have been fine), wondering if I could handle returning to school at my age.  Many of my family and friends (and acquaintances) had long lists of why-nots, and I knew that financially my dream would put a tremendous burden on my family.  However, my husband believed in me, and he promised to be behind me 110%; the extra 10% provided the support that I needed.  Without his support, my life would be very different today.  I would be in the classroom wondering many what-if’s.  Through this process, I learned to think independently, rather than rely solely on the support of others. 

The support I receive from my husband, son, and friends are emotional support.  Their support means the world to me.  After my mom passed away, I relied on their support in ways that I never imagined existed.  Their support gave me strength and continue to give me power to hold on to my mom’s memories. 

On a daily basis, my schedule is such that, without the support of my husband (he sounds pretty awesome, huh?), I would be a basket case.  My husband is retired, and yet, he works harder now than when he had his own business; how ironic!  He works constantly with me in our business, and he is a tremendous support around the house.  I barely have time to work on workshops, teach at the college, and finish my homework; there are not enough hours in the day to cook, clean, and wash.  Together, we support each other, and these chores get done. 

When we talk about practical supports, I guess that my computer supports me a lot.  It makes every aspect of my job a bit easier.  Being able to save information and do research from home is a huge support to me.  Although I love going to a library, I do not know if I would have the time to physically go there a zillion times a week.  I cannot imagine having to present my workshops without the use of a PowerPoint. 

My pool supports me.  Sounds strange, right?  It’s true, though.  When I get depressed or overwhelmed, I like nothing more than jumping in the pool with a specific raft and floating.  It makes everything wonderful again, and I return to the house ready to conquer the world.  Our pool is relatively new to our home, but I cannot remember a time when it was not here.
Supports are extremely important in my life, and with all of the changes that I’ve made recently, I depend on them, and yet, they give me the freedom to be me… and go after my dreams